因为，所以。

你给过的承诺，我该当真吗？

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我经常去看你空间的意义
只想了解你的最新情况


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么经常给你发短信
不是此刻想起你
而是我一直想着你
只是此刻想你想的最厉害



 因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么会知道你那么多的信息
因为你的一切,哪怕是早点吃了什么
对于我来说也是有意义的


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
你和谁在一起干了什么
对我来说都是一种纠结
我会乱揣测,乱生气
即使我们什么关系也没有


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
你的一句不在乎
我为什么会那么在乎
我在乎的不是这句话
我在乎的是你的人


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道我打出那一句句
那你忙吧！我不打扰时
内心的纠结


因为不喜欢我
所以你不知道我的手机里面存的都是你的信息
不开心时，看着看着，不自觉的傻笑
因为感觉你就在身边
自我安慰。


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
你对我的忽冷忽热
总是让我不自觉被你掌控
一般甜蜜，一半忧伤



因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么会经常生你气
喜欢上一个人
也赋予了他伤害我的权力


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
在我失去你信息的日子里
我是多么的沮丧
我怕就此失去你


因为你不喜欢我
所以你寂寞的时候不会想起我
而我却在时时刻刻的想着你


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
你在我眼里多么的重要
而我知道
我在你眼里却是十分的渺小


因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
在你坚持喜欢着某人的时候
我也在坚持在我的坚持
一直在这儿等着你




因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
我等待着你的关心
却等到我关上了心



因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
你的一举一动对于我来说
都是指挥棒
指挥着我的心情和生活
你没有关注过我
没有在乎过我
甚至不知道我一直在默默奉献着
因为你一直都不懂……　





因为你不喜欢我,所以你并不知道我爱你有多深…

因为你不喜欢我,你不会想到,你的一句无心的话会让一颗心跳动好久好久

因为你不喜欢我,我才会对未来有了小恐慌也许只要你幸福就够了

那喜欢竟是那样淡淡的小感情在不经意间冲击了我所有人生轨道。

 

不知道你的感觉让我很难过。

也许我会放弃。

也许这只是一次人生的小意外。

 Buddy, A hug is enough for me.

~ END OF THE POST ~

Y.O.U.

A very good day, good feels, changed.

I had make a decision just now,within 5 minutes.

A decision that making me collapse.

A decision that getting crazy.

A decision that feeling me better?

AND what THEY want? am I right?

I'm sitting infront of the computer, dreaming infront of it.

It was staring at me and I was crying.

Because of something that I cannot stand, I said it out.

PLEASE, stand by my side. THINK!!!!

I REally angry and disappointed on you now!

Is totally HATE you a lot!!!!!

U didnt even say a word!

I just follow your instructions as what you want lately!

Know what?

U thought that I will not leave and thats why you are trying to crash everything!

U thought......everything only you thought!

Your sense are even worse than me!

Your sense are even not accurate than me!

U are even BARBARIAN that me!

U are trying to care on my stuff, My thing.

Am I right? Yea,tats what you think about!

EXCUSES ME! There's a limit for everything.

YA, U GOT EVERYTHING from me and now U DUMP ME!

U cross a lot from my guide line!

I kept quiet doesn't mean I dont have FIRE!

I have my own limit!

LITTLE ASS, 

I hate you dont explain to me!

I hate you didnt get it back!

I hate you let it go!

I hate you did this!

I hate you give my those cold words! bad words!

If u wanna stop, please go. Leave me alone.

I'm depressed, frustrated!

I wanna shout out!

I wanna express!

I wanna be tough!

and YOU! DONT LOOK DOWN ON ME!

I can even live better than her! more and more!

PROVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gave everything, I tried my best.

But what I got back was just a piece of shit.

More anger, more grambling, more disappointed from you.

HEY, I'm a person, I'm a human. I got feelings!

I can cry, I can collapse anytime!!!!!!!

Ya, should say that U are so easy to let me go.

As what you like, as what you wish!!!!! 

Ur heart, was not mine. Ur everything, was not mine.

I'm just a replacement.

U sounds like giving up recently, am I right?

So, what you told me this morning were just rubbish?

and nonsence? I shouldn't be serious on the msg, isn't?

Answer me, give me answer!!!!! 

WHY? I need reason, little ASS!

Yea, I got it finally.

The person is still with you all the time.

Jealousy? Envy?

Nah......totally NO! NOT AT ALL!

I just got tired on your actions.

TOO early for me.

TOO late for me too.

A promised from X and Y....I did it.

So, please cheer me up.

I wan everything to be better than her!

U can blame on me, U can shout at me,

U may YELL at me!

U can say my DIRTY, U can scold me useless.

As long as you are happy, U are enough.

U took my everything, U have an insurance.

I dont even have a thing to keep on myself!

A LITTLE TOO LATE. 

CAuse I regretted that I didnt buy insurance and now,

I couldn't claim back or even SUE.

Hah, seems like U are happy and even sleep very well.

LOL.....experiment proved that U are ready for that.

U dont think about others including me.

U didnt reply cause U slept!

GOSH, why am I such a damn fella who waited for a long?

LOLZ....whats the point?

YA!!! Thanks to you, who gave me a big guide.

Even I dont have insurance, I still can prove it by evidence.

Few more years, I'll get a lawyer to help me.

LAWYER? of course SUE you la!

And, U are not welcome to my blog anymore!

SInce you wanna let me go, just leave!

SInce you wanna stop, just leave!

SInce you had make a better choice, just leave!

Eventhought U didnt say it out, BUT I knew.

Dont keep quiet, give me reactions to prove that U LEAVE.

I need signals.

I hope that I can graduate faster so that I can leave the school earlier.

I hope that I can shift to my new house faster so that I can leave here earlier!

I hope that I can have a flight so that I can leave this country earlier!

I hope that I will not see you forever.

LOL.....a useless girl like me.

Who only know how to CRY.

Really damn useless ASS! like F***. 

I appreciated that I still have lots of water for me to produce tears.

THANKS. I will not save it.

JUST let it swell, let it pain. I love it.

I'm LIstening to love song.

All of that lyrics was lying la.....I dont trust that anymore.

Chill Chill, F***-ing girl. 

THAT was the FACT and THE END I got.

An experience for me. Teaching me a lesson.
DO NOT trust anyone that U dont know very well.
IT might broke and smash your heart without mentioning.
I have got this now, totally in juicy.
U may hate me, remember.*

P/S: U will know what if you know me very well.

~ END OF THE POST~

Darling.

DARLING, I knew I hurt you very much recently.
I wanna apoligized that I always put you in the dark.
I knew I get into a lot of trouble if I continue like this,
and U are tired to advice me again.
I just wanna tell you that, IS TOO LATE.
Everything done and I couldn't let go now.
I hope you understand what I mean and stand by myside with the situation.


I regreted that I didnt make the decision earlier and kept playing like this.
I fooled.....I played....I'm....so sorry.
I knew it might not have future for me.
I am so sad that I knew U are giving up.
I remembered that the last time U scolded me was on FRIDAY after school.
IN the class, that was the last time.
And now, I realized that U wont anymore.
I knew U are tired and disappointed on what I said before.
I'm always alert on what am I doing,I knew.
GIRL,I had try hard but it doesn't work.
Sometimes and somehow with the situation,
we cannot control,do you understand?


U passed me the letter this morning, and I got ur msg.
I can feel the pain and disappointed from you.
Thousands of apologized on what I did.
DONT CRY infront of me! DONT show me your weakness!
Be tough! I love U. U are always mine.
Seriously, I realized the situation earlier but I kept it secretly.
I thought it will over and nothing after a moment.
But IT seems like become more worse.
Until U cannot stand.


Part of it, because of THEM, I lefted. GOT IT?
NO, U are not the extra. U are the MAIN.
I appreciated our relationship too, I care!
I dont want it to break like this with the stupid reason!
GIRL, A long journey for me and you,our memories and future.
Although it was just a short term, I still love the day with you.
Kinda happy, quite funny and blissfully!


Bout me, I really wanna apologize again.
I dont wanna lose you.
I'm dead,
I hope you will wake me up all the time.






P/S: Say you Forgive me.

~ END OF THE POST ~